What is this?! A center for ants?!

Nice guys don't always finish last.....

Wed, 19 Oct 2005 18:32:43 GMT

.....To every guy that says I love you and means it!!!
-To every guy that opens doors.
-To every guy that walks on the outside of a sidewalk so he can be the first to get hit by a car that careens off the road and push her out of the way.
-To every guy that cooks dinner for her.
-To every guy that said, "Sex can wait."
-To every guy that said, "You're beautiful."
-To every guy that gives flowers and a card when she is sick (And even a stuffed animal perhaps).
-To every guy who has given her flowers just because she is feeling a bit depressed.
-To every guy that said he would die for her.
-To every guy that really would.
-To every guy that did what she wanted to do.
-To every guy that treated her like a princess.
-To every guy that cried in front of her.
-To every guy that she cried in front of.
-To every guy that holds hands with her.
-To every guy that kisses her with meaning.
-To every guy that hugs her when shes sad.
-To every guy who would give their jacket up.
-To every guy that calls to make sure she got home safe.
- To every guy that would sit and wait for her for hours just to be able to see her for ten minutes.
-To every guy that would give his seat up.
-To every guy that just wants to cuddle.
-To every guy that will just sleep (no sex) with her.
-To every guy that reassured her that she was beautiful no matter what (even if she got fat).
-To every guy who told his secrets to her.
-To every guy that tried to show how much he cared through every word and every breathe.
-To every guy that thought maybe this could be the one.
-To every guy that believed in her dreams.
-To every guy that would have done anything so she could achieve them.
-To every guy that never laughed at her when she told him her dreams.
-To every guy that wasnt just trying to get laid.
-To every guy that actually listened.

!@..$%^&*To every guy that gave his heart only to have it shoved back in his face.*&^%$..@!

.....This one is for you.

--If you are a nice guy repost this: Title; "nice guys finish last"--

--If you are a girl that thinks every guy should try to encompass even a few of these things.....repost it with "nice guys don't always finish last."--

Tue, 26 Jul 2005 16:20:31 GMT

If you read this
You must post a memory of me.
It can be anything you want,
it can be good or bad.
Just so long as it happened.
Then post this to your journal,
and see what people remember about you ..

Baby's gotten good at goodbye......

Sat, 23 Jul 2005 05:51:06 GMT

I hate you. How dare you lie to me and tell me that you quit for me when apparently it was all for someone else. Someone you apparently like more than anything we ever had. How dare you tell me you love me when you really never did. I know you cheated on me...your lj entry makes that very apparent. What the hell makes you think you can do that shit to me? Because you got away with it before. It doesn't even hurt as much as if fucking pisses me off, besides who knows if I was compleatly honest with you the whole time anyway. Even if I wasn't we all know you had it coming. Maybe if you werent such a fucking asshole it wouldnt even matter. But you know what you were right...shit does happen so listen to this shit that's gonna happen. I'm going to find someone so much better than your sorry, lying, cheating ass that you won't even know what hit you. You'll be sorry, I'll make sure of it because you don't know what you just did. You've brought the bitch back out in me and you're going to regret it. I can do better than you and I deserve better than you. You know what? I hope she fucking breaks your heart. Don't come running to me when it happens because I won't be here. I won't be here for you ever again. I say this every time we break up.....but this time I mean it. This is it forever, I'm putting all your pictures away and writing you off. I would also like you to know that you handling the situation in such an immature way didn't help anything. I can't believe I ever thought I loved you, how could I love someone who never had the ability to love me or anyone else but himself. I wish it could have been different but things are going to be so much better for me without you, I can tell already. I hope you feel like shit, but I know you won't because you don't care. I'm done with you and I'm done with us...forever. So this time it really is goodbye.

Wed, 06 Jul 2005 07:29:24 GMT

What a woman says, what she really means...
- I need = I want
- We need = I want
- It's your decision = The correct decision should be obvious by now
- Do whatever you want = You are going to pay for this later
- We need to talk = I need to complain
- Sure...go ahead = I don't want you to
- I'm not upset = Of course I'm upset, you moron!
- You're so manly = You need a shave and you sweat a lot
- You're certainly attentive tonight = Is sex all you ever think about?
- I'm not emotional! And I'm not overreacting! = I have a severe case of PMS
- Be romantic, turn out the lights = I have flabby thighs
- This kitchen is so inconvenient = I want a new house
- I want new curtains = I want new curtains, new carpeting, new furniture, new wallpaper...
- I need new shoes = the other 40 pairs are simply the wrong shade
- I heard a noise = I noticed you were almost asleep
- Do you love me? = I'm going to ask for something expensive
- How much do you love me? = I did something today you're really going to hate
- I'll be ready in a minute = Kick off your shoes and find a good game on T.V.
- Is my butt fat? = Tell me I'm beautiful
- You have to learn to communicate = Just agree with me
- Are you listening to me? = Too late, you're dead
- Yes = No
- No = No
- Maybe = No
- I'm sorry = You'll be sorry
- I was wrong = Not as wrong as you
- Do you like this recipe? = It's easy to fix, so you'd better get used to it
- Was that the baby? = Why don't you get out of bed and walk him until he goes to sleep
- I'm not yelling! = Of course I'm yelling, this is important!

Wed, 06 Apr 2005 03:36:21 GMT

Tired of the drama.

Comment to be added...if you aren't already.

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 05:17:22 GMT

I decided I needed to actually update this thing so here it is

I love Tc with all my heart.

Goodnight

Mon, 04 Apr 2005 05:16:36 GMT

First...
First Best Friend: Umm...Mandy I think
First Crush: Wow...I can't even remember
First Real Girlfriend/Boyfriend: Reeve
First Kiss: Reeve
First Album/CD: Um..I don't know.
First Piercing/Tattoo: ears
First Love: I guess first true love is Tc
First Enemy: I don't know too many to remember the first
First Time Dyeing My Hair: 7th grade...maybe 8th
First Formal Dance: if Homecoming counts then 9th grade
First Time Breaking A Bone: never have
First Time Getting Really Sick: I got sick like once a week in Kindergarden...

Last...
Last Cuss Word Uttered: shit
Last Compliment: I don't know
Last Crush: Tc..I guess...
Last Time Driving: a few hours ago
Last Big Car Ride: a while back
Last Good Cry: Tuesday night
Last Phone Call: about 2 or so hours ago
Last Thing Written: I don't know
Last Show Watched: some show on MTV
Last Time Showered: a little while ago
Last Shoes Worn: white old navy flip flops
Last Person That You Saw Naked Besides You: Umm...Tc probably haha
Last CD Played: A burned one with a lot of country songs on it
Last Item Bought: if renting a movie counts then that's it
Last Disappointment: yesterday
Last Annoyance: Friday
Last Song You Heard: Tim McGraw: It's Your Love
Last Piercing/Tattoo: belly button

In the last 24 hours have you...
1. Cried?: nope
2. Bought something?: yes
3. Gotten sick?: no
4. Sang?: yes
5. Eaten?: yes
6. Been kissed?: yes
7. Felt stupid?: yes always haha
8. Wanted to tell someone you loved them, but didn't?: nope I told him
9. Met someone new?: no
10. Moved on?: no
11. Talk to an ex?: Well, kinda.
12. Missed an ex?: nope
13. Talked to someone you have a crush on?: I guess
14. Had a serious talk?: yes
15. Missed someone?: yes
16. Hugged someone?: yes
17. Fought with your parents?: yes
18. Dreamed about someone you can't be with?: no

social life
1. Best girl friend: Jaime
2. Best guy friend: Tim
3. Boyfriend/girlfriend: Tc
4. If no, current dating partner: ---
5. Hobbies: Alot haha
6. Pager: nope
7. Are you center of attention or the wallflower?: Depends on my mood
8. What type automobile do you drive?: Nissan Maxima
9. What type automobile do you wish you drove?: a 3000gt or an Aston Martin
10. Would you rather be with friends or on a date?: depends on my mood
11. Where is the best hangout?: beach or where ever we can
12. Do you have a job?: nope
14. Do you like being around people?: yes

personal
1. Who is your role model?: mom
2. What are some of your pet peeves?: Being hung up on, when peopel jump to conclusions or don't give me a chance to explain myself...etc. it keeps going haha
3. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with?: probably
4. Have you ever cried over the opposite sex?: yes of course
5. Do you have a "type" of person you always go after?: I don't know
6. Have you ever lied to your best friend(s)?: yeah
7. Ever wanted to get revenge on someone because they hurt you?: yes
8. Would you rather dump someone or get dumped?: dump someone
10. Do you want someone you don't have right now?: no
11. Ever liked your best guy/girl friend?: no
12. Do you want to get married?: yes
13. Do you want kids?: yes
14. Do you believe in psychics?: sometimes
16. What is your favorite part of your physical appearance?: my eyes
17. What is your favorite part of your emotional being?: Idk
18. Are you happy with you?: sometimes
19. Are you happy with your life?: certian aspects of it
20. If you could change something in your life right now, what would it be?: the fact that I haven't really been doing what I'm supposed to do...

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 05:29:37 GMT

So I want to change like the overall theme of my LJ...
anyone have any ideas?

Thu, 31 Mar 2005 02:51:33 GMT

Somewhere there's a stolen halo
I use to watch her wear it well
Everything would shine wherever she would go
But looking at her now you'd never tell

Someone ran away with her innocence
A memory she can't get out of her head
I can only imagine what she's feeling
When she's praying
Kneeling at the edge of her bed

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She wants someone to call her angel
Someone to put the light back in her eyes
She's looking through the faces
The unfamiliar places
She needs someone to hear her when she cries

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

She just needs a little help
To wash away the pain she's felt
She wants to feel the healing hands
Of someone who understands

And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me
And she says take me away
And take me farther
Surround me now
And hold, hold, hold me like holy water
Holy water

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 04:56:31 GMT

According to the Which Something Corporate Song Are You? Test...

When your love is the only thing to keep me warm...
It's no wonder I'm so cold.

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 04:56:15 GMT

I can't imagine all the people that you know
And the places that you go
When the lights are turned down low
And I don't understand
All the things you've seen
But I'm slipping in between
You and your big... dreams
it's always you and my big dreams

And you tell me
That it's over
Wake up lying in a patch of four leaf clover
And your restless
And I'm naked
You've got to get out
You can't stand to see me shaking
no, could you let me go
I didn't think so

and you don't want to be here in the future
So you say
the present's just a pleasant
Interruption to the past
And you don't want to look much closer
'Cause you're afraid to find out all the hope
That you had sent into the sky by now had... crashed
and it did because of me

And then you bring me home
Afraid to find out that you're alone, no
And I'm sleeping in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And I had these dreams, in them I learned to play guitar
Maybe cross the country
Become a rockstar
And there was hope in me
That I could take you there
But damn you're so young
But I don't think I care
and if I hurt you then i'm sorry
please don't think that this is easy

And then you bring me home
'Cause we both know what its like to be alone, no
And I'm dreaming in your living room
But we don't have much room
To live

And Konstantine is walking down the stairs
Doesn't she look good
Standing in her underwear?
And I was thinking, what I was thinking
But we've been drinking
And it doesn't get me anywhere

My Konstantine came walking down the stairs
And all that I could do
Was touch her long blond hair
And I've been thinking
It hurts me thinking
That these nights when we were drinking
No they never got us anywhere, no

This is because I can spell konfusion with a K
And I can like it
It's to dying in anothers arms
and why i had to try it
It's to jimmy eat world
and those nights in my car
when the first star you see
may not be a star
I'm not your star?
Isn't that what you said
what you thought this song meant
you thought this song meant

And if this is what it takes
just to lie with my mistakes
and live with what I did to you
All the hell I put you through
I always catch the clock it's 11:11
And now you want to talk
it's not hard to dream
You'll always be my Konstantine
My Konstantine

They'll never hurt you like I do
No, They'll never hurt you like I do
No, No, No, No, No, No, No, No

This is to a girl who got into my head
with all these pretty things she did
Hey Baby, You know that you keep me up in bed
It's to a girl who got into my head
with all the fucked up things I did
Hey maybe baby, you could keep me up in bed
My Konstantine

Spin around me like a dream
We played out on this movie screen
And I said,
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you
Did you know I miss you

I miss you

And then you bring me home
And we'll go to sleep but this time not alone, no No,
And you'll kiss me in your living room, oh
I know you miss me in your living room
Cause these nights I think maybe that I miss you in my living room
We don't have much room
I said, does anybody need that room?
Because we all need a little more room
To live

...My Konstantine

Sun, 27 Mar 2005 00:48:16 GMT

Hey there,
I know it's hard to feel like I don't care at all.
Where you are and how you feel.
With these lights off as these wheels
keep rolling on and on.
Slow things down or speed them up.
Not enough or way too much.
How are you when I'm gone?

And I can't make it on my own.
Because my heart is in Ohio.
So cut my wrists and black my eyes.
So I can fall asleep tonight, or die.
Because you kill me.
You know you do, you kill me well.
You like it too, and I can tell.
You never stop until my final breath is gone.

Spare me just three last words.
"I love you" is all she heard.
I'll wait for you, but I can't wait forever.

Understand why
See it's burning me to hold onto this
I know this is something I gotta do
But that don't mean I want to
What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just
I feel like this is coming to an end
And its better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you
I gotta let it burn

It's gonna burn for me to say this
But it's comin from my heart
It's been a long time coming
But we done been fell apart
Really wanna work this out
But I don't think ya gonna change ya
I do but you don't
Think it's best we go our separate ways
Tell me why I should stay in this relationship
When I'm hurting baby, I ain't happy baby
Plus theres so many other things I gotta deal with
I think that you should let it burn

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for you except but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sendin' pages I ain't supposed to
Got somebody here but I want you
Cause the feelin ain't the same find myself
Callin' her your name
Ladies tell me do you understand?
Now all my fellas do you feel my pain?
It's the way I feel
I know I made a mistake
Now it's too late
I know she ain't comin back
What I gotta do now
To get my shorty back
Ooo ooo ooo ooooh
Man I don't know what I'm gonna do
Without my booo
You've been gone for too long
It's been fifty-eleven days, um-teen hours
Imma be burnin' till you return
When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
you know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry
I'm twisted cuz one side of me is tellin' me that I need to move on
On the other side I wanna break down and cry

So many days, so many hours
I'm still burnin' till you return

When your feeling ain't the same and your body don't want to
But you know gotta let it go cuz the party ain't jumpin' like it used to
Even though this might bruise you
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Deep down you know it's best for yourself but you
Hate the thought of her being with someone else
But you know that it's over
You know that it was through
Let it burn
Let it burn
Gotta let it burn

Sat, 26 Mar 2005 21:54:06 GMT

Ok, so aside from the color...I really like my new car!

Wed, 23 Mar 2005 05:27:00 GMT

Prom is May 14th....blah

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 21:57:48 GMT

Someone should remind me:

You love me haha.
Never to buy black sheets.
If it's cold...don't try to lay on the beach in a bikini...it doesn't work.
Love doesn't make sense....and I shouldn't try to make sense of it.
March is not a good month for most people.
Sometimes when it rains it pours....and I mean that methaphorically...not litterally although it is true in the literal sense
Pimpin aint easy hahahahaha
This is high school.....it's not the rest of my life.
Mr. Scott is evil.....

That's it for now but I'll probably have more later!

Well...I'm tired. I need to sleep and I need a job and I need a car. This is dumb...and my head hurts. I can't tell if it hurts from stress and all that or because of the wreck, either way I wish it would stop.

Oh yeah and I like when I drink pepsi because then when I lick my lips it tastes good even when I'm done.....

Tue, 22 Mar 2005 01:13:36 GMT

Have You Ever Kissed Someone:

[ ]i have never kissed anyone before

[X]on the cheek

[X]on the lips

[X]on their hands or fingers

[X]other places...

[X]in your room

[X]in their room

[X]of the same sex (not sexually)

[X]of the opposite sex

[X]related to you (not sexually)

[X]younger than you

[X]older than you

[X]with jet black hair

[X]with curly hair

[X]with blonde hair

[x]with brown hair

[ ]with flaming red hair

[X]with straight hair

[x]with blue eyes

[X]with green eyes

[x]with brown eyes

[x]smaller/shorter than you

[X]bigger/taller than you

[X]with a lip/tongue ring

[X]who was drunk

[X]who was high

[X]who you just met

[ ]who was homosexual/lesbian

[X]who you didnt really want to kiss

[X]on a holiday

[X]who was going out with someone close to you

[ ]who was your good friends brother/sister

[ ]in jail(or has been in jail)

[ ]in a graveyard

[X]at a show/concert

[X]at the beach

[x]in a pool, Jacuzzi, some type of water

[X]who was legally too young/old for you to have sex with

[X]with dyed hair

[ ]with a shaved head

[X]who was your good friend

[X]who was in a band

[ ]who had tattoos

[X]who was of a completely different race then you

[X]in the rain

[X]who you knew his/her parents better then you knew them

[ ]in another continent besides where you were born

[X]with an accent

[ ]with an std

[ ]on a boat

[x]in a car/taxi/bus

[ ]on a plane

[ ]at a circus/carnival

[ ]with a missing body part

[X]in the movies

[X]given some one an eskimo kiss

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 21:34:37 GMT

seen it??
(X)Napoleon Dynamite
( )Saw
( )White Noise
(X)Anger Managment
(X)50 First Dates
( )Jason X
(X)Scream
(X)Scream 2
(X)Scream 3
( )Scary Movie
( )Scary Movie 2
(X)Scary Movie 3
(X)American Pie
(X)American Pie 2
(X)American Wedding
(X)Harry Potter
(X)Harry Potter 2
(X)Harry Potter 3
(X)The Wedding Singer
( )Little Black Book
(X)The Village
( )Donnie Darko
(X)Lilo & Stitch
(X)Finding Nemo
( )Finding Neverland
( )13 Ghosts
(X)Signs
(X)The Grudge
( )Texas Chainsaw Massacre (Old one)
( )White Chicks
(X)Butterfly Effect
(X)Thirteen
( )I, Robot
(X)Dodgeball
( )A Series Of Unfortunate Events
( )Along Came A Spider
( )KingPin
(X)Never Been Kissed
(X)Meet The Parents
( )Meet The Fockers
(X)Eight Crazy Nights
( )A Cinderella Story
( )The Terminal
(X)The Lizzie McGuire Movie
( )Passport To Paris
(X)Dumb & Dumber
(X)Dumb & Dumberer
( )Final Destination
( )Final Destination 2
(X)Halloween
(X)The Ring
( )Practical Magic
( )Chicago
( )Ghost Ship
( )From Hell
(X)Hellboy
(X)Secret Window
( )I Am Sam
(X)The Whole Nine Yards
( )The Day After Tomorrow
(X)Child's Play
(X)Bride of Chucky
(X)Ten Things I Hate About You
(X)Just Married
(X)Gothika
( )A Nightmare on Elm Street
(X)Sixteen Candles
( )Joy Ride
( )Seven
( )Identity
( )Lone Star
( )Cujo
( )A Bronx Tale
(X)Darkness Falls
( )Christine
( )IT
( )Children of the Corn
(X)Maid in Manhattan
( )Frailty
(X)How to Lose a Guy in 10 Days
(X)She's All That
( )Calender Girls
( )Sideways
(X)Ever After
(X)Forrest Gump
( )Big Trouble in Little China
( )Jeepers Creepers
( )Jeepers Creepers 2
( )Catch Me If You Can
(X)The Others
(X)Freaky Friday
( )Reign of Fire
( )Cruel Intentions
(X)The Hot Chick
(X)Swimfan
( )Miracle
(X)Old School
( )Ray
(X)The Notebook
( )K-Pax
(X)Lord of the Rings
(X)Lord of the Rings 2
(X)Lord of the Rings 3
( )In the Name Of the Father
( )ZOMBIE
(X)titanic

Mon, 21 Mar 2005 20:52:49 GMT

Wow, It's funny because I have so much to update on but I just don't feel like it.

Tue, 15 Mar 2005 00:34:56 GMT

You didn't tell me...I didn't know because it wouldn't have been a big deal if I had known.
Maybe I did go to get back at you....now you know what it feels like.
No more games...

I kinda just wish you would actually talk to me about it. Rather than yell and hang up on me.
You say I fucked the friendship but how is it supposed to get better if you won't even listen to me.

Got this from Tara!

Sat, 12 Mar 2005 06:24:11 GMT

A - Age you got your first kiss: 14

B - Band listening to right now: none

C - Crush: TC...blah

D - Dad's name: Ricky

E - Easiest person to talk to: Tim or Jaime

F - Favorite band at the moment: BLINK 182 always!

G - Gummy worms or bears: bears

H - Hometown: Round Rock

I - Instruments: no

K - Kids: none..unless you count those 3...hmmm

L - Longest car ride ever: when I went to Washington

M - Mom's name: Jana

N - Nickname[s]: Beautiful...I don't remember anymore..comment if you know

O - One wish: For my love to be returned fully and always stay that way

P - Phobia[s]: spiders and heights

Q - Quote: "You know shorts are naked don't lie."-Sarah said something and I thought that was what she said

R - Reason to smile: Love and friends

S - Song you sang last: From This Moment- Shania Twain

T - Time you woke up [today]: 10

U - Unknown fact about me: Well, I don't like myself. I could make excellent grades if I tried and didn't slack because I have a really high IQ and am really smart I just don't put forth the effort.

V - Vegetable you hate: Most of them

W - Worst habit(s): I have too many to name...maybe raping people muwahahaha

X - X-rays you've had: teeth, lungs

Y - Yummy food: CAKE!

Z - Zodiac sign: Capricorn

Fri, 11 Mar 2005 02:53:18 GMT

Word of advice
Pick another time, such as when I'm not sick and on my period, to do stupid shit and piss me off.

And don't have girls call me from your cell phone....you wouldn't like it if I had guys calling you from mine. Kthx

I don't know. It's not so much that it made me mad or I didn't believe you, it's just it didn't make me feel good. It kinda hurt I think....but I'm getting pretty numb to it.

Wed, 09 Mar 2005 02:37:24 GMT

Don't.. don't you wish we tried
Do you feel what I feel inside
You know love is stronger than pride
Don't.. no don't
Let your anger grow
Just tell me what you need me to know
Please talk to me don't close the door
Cause I wanna hear you.. wanna be near you

Don't fight.. don't argue
Give me the chance to say that I'm sorry
Just let me love you
Don't turn me away.. don't tell me to go

Don't.. don't give up on trust
Don't give up on me.. on us
We could just hold on long enough
We can do it.. we'll get through it

Don't fight.. don't argue
Just give me the chance to say that I'm sorry
Just let me love you
Don't turn me away.. don't tell me to go

Don't pretend that it's ok
Things won't get better that way
And don't do something you might regret someday
Don't..
Don't give up on me

We can do it.. we'll get through it

I do swear that I'll aways be there.
I'd give anything and everything and I will always care.
Through weakness and strength, happiness and sorrow,
for better or worse, I will love you with
every beat of my heart.
From this moment life has begun
From this moment you are the one
Right beside you is where I belong
From this moment on

From this moment I have been blessed
I live only for your happiness
And for your love I'd give my last breath
From this moment on

I give my hand to you with all my heart
Can't wait to live my life with you, can't wait to start
You and I will never be apart
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
There is nothing I wouldn't give
From this moment on

You're the reason I believe in love
And you're the answer to my prayers from up above
All we need is just the two of us
My dreams came true because of you

From this moment as long as I live
I will love you, I promise you this
From this moment
I will love you as long as I live
From this moment on

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 18:12:43 GMT

So I most def. almost died last night. No kidding, I know I always say that and it's over exadgeration but really I almost died. If I hadnt woke up when I did it's highly possible I would be dead right now.
I compleatly stopped breathing....because for some reason my nose is all stuffy and my throat feels like my non existant tonsels are swollen to the size of baseballs. Luckly I woke up and all I remember is thinking "hey I can't breathe" and then trying really hard to breathe and finally being able to a little. EK!

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 04:00:42 GMT

Ok, so I've always loved this but I was reminded of it tonight. I know a few people that should read this....or hear it again.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with all the truth. It always protects, always TRUSTS, always hopes, always perseveres. LOVE NEVER FAILS. But where there are prophecies, they will cease; where there is knowledge, it will pass away. For we know in part and we phrophesy in part, but when perfection comes, the imperfect disappears.

1 Corinthians 13:4-10

Mon, 07 Mar 2005 00:06:32 GMT

Sometimes I don't know what I'm supposed to think,
please tell me how I'm supposed to feel,
this taste of tears is familar,
I can't breathe here,
let me out.

You tell me how can this be,
If she knew I was the one,
Who used to turn you on,
Yeah,
But you don't want to talk about it
When you think you can find
Someone to fill my shoes
And you ask yourself why
That she can't do the thing I do
And you can't deny
That everywhere you go
You see my face and my name
And it eats you up inside
You know I'm one of a kind
There'll never be another me
Can't get me out of your mind
You're lost in your own fantasy
And when you look in my eyes
Is it hard for you to realize
She'll never be me

Even in my heart I see
You're not being true to me
Deep within my soul I feel
Nothing's like it used to be
Sometimes I wish I could turn back time
Impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
Quit playing games with my heart
Quit playing games with my heart
Before you tear us apart
Quit playing games with my heart
I should've known from the start
You know you've gotta stop
You're tearing us apart
Quit playing games with my heart
I live my life the way
To keep you coming back to me
Everything I do is for you
So what is it that you can't see
Sometimes I wish I could
Turn back time, impossible as it may seem
But I wish I could so bad, baby
You better quit playin' games with my heart